DON'T QUIT

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit –
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the straggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit, -
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit.
Anonymous

I READ THIS ON THE BACK OF MY CHURCH BULLETIN BACK HOME AND IT KIND OF MADE ME FEEL LIKE IT WAS WRITTEN ABOUT ME AND FOR ME ALL AT THE SAME TIME….

So what do you think?

AAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Okay, not only am I planning on being Jack Sparrow for halloween (hence the title), I am totally frustrated. Last week we made my GRADUATE PROFESSOR cry... how pathetic is that. This week my ADD and my inabilaty to keep my mouth shut when things are boring and I get hyperactive damn near got me into trouble like a half a dozen times. I could care less about the class, but unfortunately I am one of those people who when they care less are totally unable to keep their mouths shut and pretend like the class really matters to them. Instead I get punchy and everything becomes a huge freaking joke. I bagged on the teacher twice today and although the first time went by without notice I'm pretty sure she caught on the second time. Crap I hate this class, now my grade is going to suffer for some stupid hippy teacher who shouldn't even be allowed to be a student in this course, much less be the teacher.

Okay so after that little rant and rave...
The rest of my life is moving along pretty well, aside from the fact that I got out of class early and was so excited that I could get home early and then realized there was no one here to come home to and no one to call to come over an hour early and make out with me or do anything to celebrate not being stuck in the torture chamber that is management 635. I know it sounds like i'm totally being a big baby and just crying about everything, but I swear life is actually going pretty well. I love my girlfriend and we've agreed that we don't have to have all the answers right now. Although I think sometimes we both feel like we are just procrastinating, it is nice not to have to save the world each and every day. Besides now we totally get to focus on just being in love, and I can't even tell you how much that makes me smile. Granted that doesn't mean that it is always easy, but its always worth it no doubt. (hey baby hey baby hey, Gwen rocks)
This whole positive kick is working pretty well. I have totally decided to focus on the good side of things, and although its not always easy to find the silver lining, I am enjoying being one of those people who for the most part is genuinely happy and excited about things. Plus having the most amazing woman in the world tell you she loves you about a million times a day is a definite plus. Now if only she were here and we could do something about it.... then I wouldn't be able to stop smiling.... but we'll save that for another time.

Peace, much love, happiness, and blessings to all

A negative times a negative equals a POSITIVE

Okay so maybe thats a wierd title, but when you consider I have been looking at everything as though the glass was only half full, you can see where the negativity comes from. But that was before last nights service. The worship music rocked, I think Jeff was Van Halen in a former life or something. But the key was the message. Our God is a God of newness. He will always be the rock, the foundation, but that doesn't mean he is stagnant. I'm trying to accept the new things God has in store for me (Toni in Boston, being all alone, feeling like an old man) and accept them as blessings of newness. Toni in Boston is a great chance for her to explore her dreams and for our love to grow stronger as we take on the challenge of being across the country, and me being alone means I have more time to focus on myself and being a better man, both for the Lord and also for Toni. My new look has caused me to realize that even though I totally don't deserve it, I have the most beautiful girlfriend, who for some reason loves me back and wants to marry me. How lucky can a guy get... You see all these guys with their fantasy girls that don't even know they exist, and my fantasy girl already loves me and wants to be with me, forever. You know sometimes you just gotta smile and let the blessings flow.

Thank God for church and glasses half full!

I'm much too young to feel this damned old!

Once upon a time I new this spry twenty - three year old who was a fun loving, fun having young kid, and then one day he woke up to find he had turned into an old ass 24 year old who might as well be sixty going on dead. Not that I want to die or anything, actually I would still like to live cause I have lots left that I want to do with my life. But lately, the last week or so specifically I have been feeling like such an old man. Take this weekend for example, last night I came home from work, ate dinner, watched TV and went to bed. Then I woke up today, did all the yard work around the house, completely cleaned my entire garage, watched some TV and ate dinner, and so to spice things up, I thought I'd write a little blog. It's eleven o'clock and after this I am going to read a book and go to bed. How sad is this, pretty sad. Ever since my girlfriend left I have done absolutely nothing besides work, eat, sleep, go to school, and go to bed. And all this is doing wonders for the fact that I am now officially back up to 220. Sometimes... Whatever its time for me to stop whining like i'm still 13 and read my book and get on with my life. Tommorrow is church, thank God for that. Hopefully that will help to lift my spirits

Here goes... something?

So this whole blog thing is kind of new to me but here goes my first attempt.

My Job is going pretty well as of late, I have even managed to show up like ten minutes early the last two days in a row (those of you who know me know that is a major accomplishment). My boss has been pretty cool and I'm starting to feel like I'm one of the group, not the new kid everyone inevitablly thinks is weird for some reason or another. Now out from under the maginifying glass I'm free to eat sushi at my desk (wohoo!) and pretty much work at my own pace without someone staring over my shoulder.

In other news my extremely significant other started school and although I'm totally excited for her I'm also a little worried wether or not she will have any time left for me, cause I know she is going to be pretty busy with grad school, and being a supervisor at work and all that. While were on the subject of her starting school, I totally goofed on that one. I tried to send her some chocolates (since its not tulip season yet) to wish her well on her first day of school. I screwed up and put in the wrong address and so whe went off on her first day without my treats and wishes. She still had a great day so all's well that ends well, but still I wish the flower people could have figured it out and got them to her ON TIME!

I think thats probably way too much already so I'll have to cut it off here....
more next time

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